Thursday, 10 September 2015


#dd if=/dev/brain of=blogg

It's now going on almost three years since my anxiety disorder first entered my life uninvited and about six months since I last slept properly, not feeling like I'd only had a few hours sleep.

Now marriage is on the horizon and life is getting twenty times busier, what with what feels like a one and only chance to recertify and upskill.

Finances are causing untold stress as well, which puts more pressure on me for the above reasons and future plans (read: family).

Sadly, I can only see realism and logic, 1's and 0's, if then else. This can and regularly does get perceived as negative, not very helpful to my cause.

My way of thinking probably isn't normal, but what is? More importantly, why should I change that if that is who I am?

I'm now at a point where my relationship with the fiancée is stretched to the point of breaking, like a rubber band that keeps stretching, but amazingly hasn't broken. Yet.

I can see part of my father in the way I do certain things, which scares the hell out of me, because I do not want to be like him. I want to be me, and I most certainly don't want to be encumbered by the same physical and psychological issues he has.

I am so tired, both literally and figuratively and I am finding it very difficult to continue on this 'do until' or 'do while' life.

I'm also very disappointed in myself, for not getting the career on track earlier in my life.

I'm also frustrated that all my hard work isn't recognised at all, that I forget so many simple things, nor can I focus at my job or my studies, adding more stress in getting ahead.

I am not seeking sympathy, but I am trying to find positivity at work and in my life, which just aren't anywhere to be seen.

Tuesday, 21 July 2015

Resurrection of the Blog(s)

After a short discussion with a PLUG (Perth Linux Users Group) member, I have come to realise that syndication of my posts is probably better off on one or more of my Blogs (see sidebar or my profile for more information) and link them in Google+

The realisation came because I should not keep a walled-garden mentality and be more agnostic and probably more accessible to those who do not use the service while providing an easy method for those who do, to follow the link within the platform to read the article if they choose.

I will also be posting more personal matters here in order to help me collect my thoughts and work through my issues such as my anxiety disorder and the inherent depression that comes from it.

Again, you may choose to read it, or you may choose to ignore it.

Monday, 4 March 2013

life update

Yes, I have neglected the blog for quite some time now, but only because Google+ had distracted me for the most part.

I have managed to loose approximately 5Kg of weight through eating (or should I say drinking) meal replacements, eating smaller portions, significantly reducing carbohydrates and exercising a bit more.

My stress levels are still high since I successfully completed my Cisco Certified Network Associate (CCNA) on October, but thanks to my doctor and a renewed approach to work (ie. less caring) I'm able to cope a little bit better.

One of the biggest issues I am faced with right now is the frustration that comes with trying to pursue my chosen career.

I foresee a major delays in my current employer providing career progression due mostly to the radical changes to the business and sadly I must look elsewhere.

So, I have my CCNA as well as some practical experience from a previous job (before I got the qualification) as well as many hours of lab time on Cisco equipment and I know my way around IOS very well but most of the Network Engineer/Administrator roles I am applying for I am barely getting to interview stage.

I am wondering if part of the problem is that recruiters and employers don't seem to comprehend what is actually required to get a CCNA (there is a lot of lab time and one must fully understand the content to successfully pass) and they are mostly under the impression that the curriculum is purely theory-based, which is entirely untrue.

I have begun reaching out to my collective friends, colleagues, acquaintances and recruiters in the hopes that I can secure a new role that actually exploits my strong Cisco skills.

Lucky for me I can be quite stubborn, and I don't give up so easily.

There has been more social interaction with Google+ friends, and a little less with my old group of friends, but this is in part due to their obsession with Warhammer (tabletop) and the games that they all play are not the genre that I am interested in, which has my slightly concerned.

I'm also not sure what game in my libraries I want to play next as I often find that I am too tired to engross myself in some of them and as such find myself tending to avoid them.

This year is anything but interesting with all of the above and more, but hopefully I will be able to get back to enjoying myself like I used too.

- D

Tuesday, 26 April 2011


"Natural disasters are perhaps evolving into MAN MADE disasters.

We may appreciate, for example, that Queensland floods could be exacerbated by coal exports.

Maybe taxes can evolve to suit circumstances!

An all important "Carbon Tax" should replace out-dated income tax and last century's G.S.T. (Not to mention Sales tax, flood levys, etc.)

Imagine the stimulus to the economy!

What do we, especially grand children and children, deserve?


One tax - one future!!"

This is an interesting notion. Why not remove all other (or at least most) failed tax systems and replace them with a single rationalised (and given the current climate changes, possibly justified one)?

  1. Bergin, R. (2011). Rationalising Tax. Unpublished leaflet (discussion)

Sunday, 10 October 2010

whale watching (2010)

$GF and I went whaling whale watching on Thursday.

We caught the train to Fremantle and boarded the oceanic cruise vessel and to see a few pods of them gracefully doing their whale thing.

Unfortunately none of them breached, but they did surface right near the boat (Starboard bow) just before the vessel started up for the return journey to Fremantle.

We then decide to go eat at Cicerellos after getting hopelessly lost thanks to stupid directions by the iPhone/Google map application.

And not only but also, we squeezed in a movie session and saw Legend of the Guardians: The Owls of Ga'Hoole 3D

We then returned home very hot and sore from too much sun due to lack of sunscreen (we both forgot to bring it to whale watching) :-P

Current Mood: Content

Sunday, 26 September 2010


I had finally saved up enough to purchase a new TV!

I bought a Samsung 50" 1080p (FULL HD) Plasma which I ordered online from JB Hi-Fi and it was delivered to us two days after the order was made!

According to a JB Hi-Fi pamphlet, the TV was reduced in price the same day that it was delivered, but I could not be bothered arguing about the price reduction with them, due to the fact that it was delivered so quickly.

Not expecting it to arrive so soon, I was forced to purchase a TV unit (Opra 2230 - which I had discovered in an Anthony Murray's Furniture pamphlet about a month prior to all this).

Unfortunately, the TV Entertainment unit has been delayed, until (hopefully) next week, so I am a bit sad at not being able to use my brand new TV yet :(

Now what shall I 'christen' the TV with?

UPDATE 29/09/2010 @ 16:19
Had to call the furniture shop (multiple times) to confirm that supplier has delivered unit to warehouse, but we will not be receiving it until Friday at the earliest... *sigh*

UPDATE 10/10/2010 @ 13:33
TV Entertainment unit arrived last week and it's all post-drilled and TV is hooked up. Problem is, TV looks small on such a large unit :-P

Current Mood: Exhausted

temporary modifications to circadian rhythm

I seem to have come up with a decent schedule for transitioning from two 12-hour days to two 12-hour nights within a 24-hour break.

Two separate sleeps (approximately 5 hours each) within allocated 24 hour break.

I tend to go to bed immediately after I finish my 0600-1800 stint and sleep for 5 hours and then get another 5 hours sleep during the day before beginning the reverse shift (1800-0600). Although it seems to work and seems to decreas stress on the body, I am still unsure if this is very efficient.

I haven't found any particularly useful sources of information to aid in 'transitioning' but I would welcome any comments anyone has on this subject.