HTFU

Time to Harden the F%^# up!

Seriously though, the ERT (Emergency Response Team) that I have recently joined has me on a BG4 course which entails lugging a huge 15Kg SCBA on our back (not to mention all the other gear like self-rescuer cap-lamp etc). Oh did I mention that there was a fully loaded stretcher that we had to drag around too? well there is!

It's a really tough course that I have just managed to pass the third day, however tomorrow is what's known as the "Ball Breaker" which is the most physically demanding day of the lot!

Besides the ERT stuff I heard that someone here at work really needed to speak to (about non-work related stuff) after about 9pm which was well after I had fallen asleep. I have suspicions, but no idea why...

Anyway, I'm off to do some BG4 study and relax for the big day tomorrow.

Current mood: Drained

Finances and Study

I am currently at work studying and blogging because it's yet another weekend with no one else in the office, and I just had a revelation about how I could possibly re-do my finances so that I can afford to buy a new car . This is because of the fact that my bank offers a new account with high interest, and free fixed withdrawals, however I would need to initially deposit quite a bit to make it worthwhile.

This swing (shift) I have only been able to work a whole 3 days (normally I work 9) but due to the fact that I am now a member of mines rescue, I have 6 days training this shift :/

I also took some well deserved time out last night from my regular study nights (in my dormitory) to watch a movie and drink beer (while watching Beerfest :P) which is actually a lot funnier than I thought it would be considering the title.

Time to get back to work at studying for upcoming exams! :P

Current mood: Bored/Lonely

Random Post #1

Well, yet another fantastic and well needed/deserved RDO has passed and I am sitting here again blogging and eating breakfast which includes thinking of something to write :P

I seemed to have lost weight from the last work roster shift, although I also seem to have somehow put on about 2Kg this RDO?

Oh and I also managed to pass the CSG3201 Multi-choice test yesterday by getting 24/30 (not to mention completing it in about 10 mins) so now I know that I don't have to worry so much about the exam for this unit.

It's yet another flyout morning but this time it's like 6°C (I'd hate to think how cold it currently is in camp).

Current mood: Cheerful

Study Sux

I seem to have been getting really distracted from studying and loosing sight of my future goals (Get degree. Get high paying job etc.).

I have had very little motivation to study lately and I am back on the turps (not actually turpentine but alcohol in general). I am at risk of failing units and it's making me quite depressed.

It almost feels like an early mid-life crisis :P

Since I am earning decent money now, I have been thinking about investment options (not necessarily with the company I work for) but I don't know where to start...

Current mood: Depressed.

Rejected

As I was waiting for something else to complete while giving my friend some technical assistance, I decided to check my email. I discovered that the girl I liked sent an email stating that she wasn't interested (after reading my letter). This is a rough snippet of what it said (based on what I remember after deleting it):

"I thought the letter was sweet but I am not interested in that way. I'm sorry I gave that impression but I would like to forget that it happened."

I am so tired of having to work so hard to meet a nice girl, only to be slapped in the face with rejection.
Since I failed I think it's time to shut down the emotions once again...

Current mood: Unknown


"I usually try to keep my sadness pent up inside where it can fester quietly as a mental illness" -- Turanga Leela (Futurama, episode 4ACV02 - Leela's Homeworld)

mini post

2 people I know recently had their birthdays on the 15^th and 16^th (gratz).

I gave the letter to her, so now I don't have to think about it so much and can get on with important things in my life like the IT meeting at work today.

At least I have my new monitor

Current mood: Somewhat happy (content)

Hard Work

It's hard work trying to win the girl of you dreams.

Last night was yet another sleepless night which I gave up on the sleeping part by about 0400h and walked to work early (0530h). It was cold.

I decided to use this early time at work to pour my feelings into a note/letter that I am still wondering when/if I will give it to her.

It seems like she has clued into the fact that I like her... but she is not saying anything about it. Is this good or bad?

I can't wait much longer to see if she comes around because this waiting is really doing my head in!

Current mood: Depressed

Back on the Caffeine

Well it looks like I'm back on the caffeine again (I didn't realise that green tee had caffeine in it!), but now I want to get hold of some Tamaryokucha!

Even though work is still busy (even for a weekend) I'm at least making some time to blog while listening to music at FULL volume while singing and generally trying to keep myself in a good mood, and so far it seems to be working...

There's a BBQ tonight at SPQ so I will probably be slightly intoxicated and/or hungover.

Current mood: Good (somewhat happy :P)

私は愛にあるか。

Morning Blog

It's 4am and I am eating my breakfast and typing up yet another blog.

This break was very much needed as I feel really refreshed and less stressed, but my friends are a little annoyed at me for not turning up on sunday due to my intoxication.

After a lengthy discussion with a close friend of mine about the girl I really, really, really (really x ~200) like, I have determined that there may be another Girl (possibly) interested in me... which may complicate matters for me.

Anyway, it's fly-in day today meaning that I go back to work again. so I have to go shower and stuff and get ready for my taxi.

Current mood: Slightly confused

RDO Goodness

This break has been one of the best!

Thursday night I picked up Pokémon Diamond & Pearl, then mostly played it that night and the following morning, while at the same time misplacing my 2Gb umass (USB Flash Disk).

Friday and Saturday was kinda boring but productive as I managed to spend lots of money on clothes (Friday) and also clean my room (Saturday), however my Stepdad and I picked up SG-1 again (since I repaired my XBOX).

Sunday was a really nice day as there was a BBQ and lots of people came and ate food and drunk alcohol (including myself - alcohol mainly).

Monday was also a superior day as I not only did very little, but I got my TV + Wii sent up north, and ended the afternoon at the Greenwood Hotel (Pub) with a Pint of Feral White, an awesome Steak sandwich and a few rounds of pool with some friends. Found the 2Gb umass! *phew*

Today I am off to UNI to see if I can pass the mid-term theory and practical tests for CSG3201 (Remote Access Networks)...

I also seem to have lost a few Kg but it's hard to tell how much as I didn't weigh myself prior to dieting... Next fortnight, 75Kg! (Hopefully)

Current mood: Content

Sleepless Nights

As per the title of this post. I can't sleep.
Recap on yesterdays events:
Got up early and played some Pokémon for a few hours (damn that game's addictive!), waited for a courier to pickup the GPS unit from work so that it could get sent for repairs/firmware upgrade. Then I went to the shops. I almost bought a new phone and spent well over $400 in clothes (retail therapy of sorts) and on the way back from the shops I decided to go visit my (favorite) sister.

Now I'm here blogging at 6am because I can't get her out of my head (because she's now in my dreams!!)

This weekend I am going to make my move (and prepare for rejection)...

Current mood: Tired

Bad mood, good mood

Yesterday I was so irritable, so very, very irritable. And upset. Apart from the lack of sleep causing me to make numerous (small) mistakes at work, I realised that I made a finanial screw-up. Not that it fixes anything, but at least I have Pokémon to cheer me up somewhat.

current mood: Sad